It’s amazing to me how my pride creeps up on me so often. Just when I feel I’m doing okay…lol. It’s kind of a sad thing but I’m so very thankful that God is so forgiving as I am repentant. He is truly amazing in so many ways and deserves all praise and I truly feel thankful in all circumstances as He is conforming me to His image in every one!
I have been asking the Lord to work in me….to teach me how to pray. I truly feel like I am not where I would like to be….or even where He would like me to be when it comes to my prayer life. I do have a prayer life…in that I could have ‘pride’ but if I am distracted and just bringing a bunch of requests?? Well, it is not satisfactory to me and so I must seek Him….I must ask Him….even beg Him to pray through me for the things that He wants prayed for. To abandon my own wants and needs for His. To cling to His will and not my own….I have to tell you that I still find I am not moved by the things that should move me. I am not broken over the things that should break me. Pride….*sigh*…I am so foolish and am realizing how patient He really is with me.
Paul said that he “fought the good fight” Do we find that we are in a fight or just observing it? He said that we are to run the race as if to win. Are we “running the race” or, again, just observing? I don’t want to be content when it comes to the things of God. I want to take heaven by storm….railing against it until God comes down and meets with me….but I find I am too content with observing too often. I want to seek Him until I receive everything He has promised to those who love Him….yet, again, sitting…observing. I think of the verse in Philippians “work out your salvation with fear and trembling” I have had moments but on the whole, I have lacked the fear and the trembling:(
O God, I am transparent before You…You know everything about me. Nothing is hidden from Your sight. Please Lord, remove this laziness from my soul and replace it with urgency…even terror. Don’t let me fall asleep in the arbor (Pilgrim’s Progress) but keep me pummeled by trials and tribulation….things that knock me to my knees and cause me to cling to You. I need You! I want You! Transform me into a soldier…bold and confident in the power of Your spirit. Teach me Your ways O Lord that I may walk in them. Thank You Father.
Nothing more needs to be said. I keep asking Him for the fear of the Lord. My praying is throughout the day as I come across things in the news or for situations I’m in at the time. However, I love it on those occasions when I’m in the Scriptures and, while He’s revealing His truths to me, I pray through the Scriptures I’m reading. More of that, please, Lord. More of that!
@tellthetruth1 Amen. May God continue to bless you with His presence throughout your days! <3